Guardian
You, you who smiled when you’re in pain
You who soldiered through the profane
They were distracted and shut down
So why, why would you talk to me at all
Such words were dishonorable and in vain
Their promise as solid as a fog
And where was your watchman then
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care, your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all as your guardian
You, you in the chaos feigning sane
You who has pushed beyond what’s humane
Them as the ghostly tumbleweed
And where was your watchman then
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care, your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all as your guardian
Now no more smiling mid crest fall
No more managing unmanageables
No more holding still in the hailstorm
Now enter your watch woman
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care, your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all as your guardian
Woman Down
First woman down was your mother
She did condone how you behave
All you could see was your father
His disrespect was in her face
Next woman down was your sister
Her silence did corroborate
She took her cues from the climate
And never knew another way
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us
Are you willing to clean the slate woman down
Woman down, oh
Next woman down was your lover
She takes your spite at value face
Even her hair length and color
Gives you the impulse to repeat
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us
Are you willing to clean the slate woman down
Woman down, woman down, oh
Next woman down is your daughter
A stranger to being debased
She has a new lease and limit
On the abuse she'll tolerate
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us
Are you willing to clean the slate woman down
Woman down
Til you
I’ve been wasting time
Clawing my way to you
Taking no prisoners with my romantic crimes
I’ve been holding on imaging him says a new
Holding my breath while you clean down the pike
Spinning my wheels round
I’m here, dodging bullets 'til you
Ear to the ground
I’m here, dodging bullets 'til you
I’ve been taking notes
Nursing the thought of you
Research and deliver 'cause I’m hiding my time
I’ve been holding on this magnet that calls to you
Entertaining myself with these consolation prizes
Spinning my wheels round
I’m here, dodging bullets 'til you
Ear to the ground
I’m here, dodging bullets 'til you
They’ve become too fond
But mere peace holders to you
They feel the stance card
As you form in my mind
Spinning my wheels around
I’m here, dodging bullets 'til you
Ear to the ground
I’m here, dodging bullets 'til you
'Til you
Celebrity
I have tasted stardom since before I breathed
My young and hungry daddy murdered for me
And I have never left this ambitious city
And I've only known a lust for VIP
I have studied long and hard how to proceed
Nothing but my name in bright lights called to me
And I display the perfect amount of en oui
I'll carve my face a bit, you'll indulge me
Give me celebrity my kingdom to be famous
Tell me who I have to be
Starting to be famous
Never wonder who's pulling strings above me
Cause I'm aware of wheels, heels, and vintage Gucci
I'm on my twentieth round of vitamin v
And I'll cut my weight until you'll have me
Give me celebrity my kingdom to be famous
Tell me who I have to be
Starting to be famous
Let me into this exclusive club
Ignore my hidden agenda
I am a tattooed sexy dancing monkey
Just aloof enough to get you to want me
Hoping my persona ingratiates me
Give my life over the opportunity
Give me celebrity my kingdom to be famous
Tell me who I have to be
Starting to be famous
Give me celebrity my kingdom to be famous
Tell me who I have to be
Starting to be famous
Empathy
There are so many parts that I have hidden and that I yet lost
There are so many ways that I have cut off my nose despite my face
There are so many colors that I still try to hide while I paint
And there are so many tunes that I secretly sing away
But come along
Yeah, invite these part-time writers
Hello, this invitation
Is one that I’ve stopped fighting oh oh
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for guiding me
I hear your bide, your empathy
Ha-a this intimacy ha-a-a-a
There were so many times I thought I have died, not the usually known
There were so many moments, forever lonely in my location
You come along
To celebrate each feeling
Come, there you are
How long have I’ve been fighting?
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for guiding me
I hear your bide, you empathy
Ha-a this intimacy ha, ah, ah, ah
There were some days when the trusting was the last of me
You’re quiet too much, you see too less
Except you’re generous, see?
To love myself enough
To let you help me
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for guiding me
I hear your bide, you empathy
Ha, a this intimacy ha, ah, ah, ah
Lens
You and I are in the same room
We both think we're fair
We both live for truths
But then how are we to define something so subjective
Living under the same roof
So here these battles of wills
They beg for some proof
Of right versus wrong
Your approach seems better than mine
Though it's working for you all I feel is disconnection
So now it's your (your) religion 'gainst my (my) religion
My humble opinion 'gainst yours
This does not feel like love
It's your (your) conviction 'gainst my (my) conviction
And I'd like to know what we've seen
Through the lens of love, love, love, love
And so now your grand assessment is that I'm not in your group that I'm not your kind
And so we're locked in a stalemate with you in your corner and me dismayed in mine
So now it's your (your) religion 'gainst my (my) religion
My humble opinion 'gainst yours
This does not feel like love
It's your (your) conviction 'gainst my (my) conviction
And I'd like to know what we've seen
Through the lens of love, love, love, love
And this stance keeps us locked in biophilias
And this lie remains about us being separate
So now it's your (your) religion 'gainst my (my) religion
My humble opinion 'gainst yours
This does not feel like love
It's your (your) conviction 'gainst my (my) conviction
And I'd like to know what we've seen
Through the lens of love, love, love, love
Spiral
I could be daydreaming but for a moment
And somehow they're creeping back in
I could be sleeping awakened the torrent
Somehow I get caught in their grips again
And here I am in my shame spiral
I'm sucked in to it again
And I reach out for your benevolent opinion
And you bring the light back in, oh
Don't leave me here with all these critical voices
Cause they do their best to bring me down, bring me down
When I'm alone with all these negative voices
I will need your help to turn them down, turn them round
I could be listening to waken the season
The story I'm not even in
These voices have their way when I am unguarded
Suddenly I step in quicksand again
Once again in my shame spiral
I am glad that you've weighed in, oh
Don't leave me here with all these critical voices
Cause they do their best to bring me down
When I'm alone with all these negative voices
I will need your help to turn them down, turn them round
All these judgements, so incisive
Voices left to their devices
This moments narrate is a desperate plea
For slack to be cut to me
Cut to me, oh
Don't leave me here with all these critical voices
'Cause they do their best to bring me down, bring me down
When I'm alone with all these negative voices
I will need your help to turn them down, turn them round
Turn them round, turn them round
Numb
feel smothered and encumbered and defeated and drawn
Disappointed, over-extended and frustrated and shaken
This over-giving , over-loving, this care taking goes on
With no chance of intermission
I'll be checked out, I'll be gone
Have to remove myself from sensation
Here comes the feeling
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
Can't sit with this feeling
I'd rather be flying and comfortably numb
I feel anxious, I am nervous I am bored
I'm overwhelmed, rather be out of my gourd
Have to remove myself from sensation
Here comes the feeling
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
Can't sit with this feeling
I'd rather be flying and comfortably numb
I am lonely, I feel hungry and unloved
I feel angry, I am livid, need a hug
Here comes the feeling
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
Can't sit with this feeling
I'd rather be flying and comfortably numb
Havoc
Just when I thought
I had handled solace
I could soften my guard behind false confidence
Just when I felt
Humbled by insipid
Except from this blind-side and from reading a script
'Cause I am seduced by reaction and under the influence
I'm slipping again I'm
Up to my tricks off my wagon
I have no defense I'm
Wreaking havoc
Wreaking havoc and consequence
I get reduced by my own willfulness as
I reach for my usual odd replacements
'Cause I wish for sanction it lacks in my steps
I'm slipping grip I'm
Up to my tricks off my wagon
I have no defense I'm
Wreaking havoc
Wreaking havoc and consequence
If forgiveness is understanding that I
Affirming a compact for the millionth time
From this tumbling house of cards of mine
I am beaten by my impulsiveness
By this uncanny foreshadowing of regret
'Cause I'm repulsed by restriction at least that's my excuse
I'm slipping again I'm
Up to my tricks off my wagon
I have no defense I'm
Wreaking havoc
From v
Wreaking havoc and consequence
I have no defense I'm
Wreaking havoc
Wreaking havoc and consequence
Win and win
In my old days someone won
Those were days of win-lose
In those beat times I was better
I set high but came down by a nose
Changed direction, looking up
I am not worthy to be with you
We are separate, I'm inferior
I have yearnings to sit across from you
'Cause we're eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
Both directions speak alive
Upon now I can feel
As we down with our power
We are separate, not looking across
'Cause we're eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
Let’s dilute us from avengers
We are locked in the struggle
These lies of love status lower
These conclusions, we’re in trouble
'Cause we're eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you (do I love you?)
Seems I love you
Seems I love you (do I love you?)
Seems I love you
Receive
I wake up and search things first
I'm of service
I make sure your needs are met, I'm so selfless
I give hard and serve hard and now I, I need a break
I give in, I give all and now it’s time to regenerate
Today’s all about me, all about cup filling
Today’s all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I move on through offerings, I find exciting
In this slow on list of worth of understanding
I give hard, ṗrovide hard and now I need some relief
I look out, I prefer and now I need some respect and ?
Today’s all about me, all about cup filling
Today’s all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
My habit to love you first, in me it lingers
To renew is so knee-jerk leaves me a stranger
I give hard and fight hard and now I need to retreat
I give out, dedicate and now I need to acknowledge me
Today’s all about me, all about cup filling
Today’s all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Edge of Evolution
Here I leave my story, I leave it in the dust
Although this psychology's been entertaining enough
Here in lies the witness objective with my stuff
But we're ready to push envelopes into full-blown consciousness
So here we go out here on the edge of evolution
Numbers growing out here on the edge of evolution
I have had my glimpses with and without substances
I have had awakenings non-abiding for the most part
And here we go out here on the edge of evolution
Numbers growing out here on the edge of evolution
In this sacred duality
The highs and lows and heres and theres
These aversions and these cravings
Push me beyond identity into pure awareness (we're already here)
And here we are out here on the edge of evolution
We keep going out here on the edge of evolution
Here we are out here on the edge of evolution
We keep going out here on the edge of evolution
Will you be my Girlfriend ?
I didn't know how to ask unawkwardly.?
I didn't know how to approach it.?
I haven't known how to do this informally?
Not cut out for dropping masks?
?
I guess I give, and you give back.?
Is that right??
Guess I listen and you feedback?
Is that right?
I guess I call when I need help?
Is that right??
Will You be my girlfriend??
?
I haven't worn my heart on sleeves and been rewarded?
with an open heartedness?
I haven't felt I had the right to be supported?
with a golden tenderness?
?
I guess I risk and you risk back?
is that right??
I guess I share and you share back?
Is that right??
Guess I uplift you when you crack?
Is that right??
Will You be my girlfriend??
?
Can I lean on your shoulder? ?
Will you join me in some pact??
Will you see me as your sister??
Can we love enough to offer that??
?
I guess I thought that you would laugh and be daunted?
And think me clingy and too much?
I thought this much too vulnerable, and you'd not cut ?
me slack?
And think me intolerable?
?
I guess I fall and you stay intact?
Is that right??
I guess you hear me and won't attack me?
Is that right??
Guess I reach out and you reach back?
Is that right??
Will you be my girlfriend??
?
Guess I divulge and you wink back?
Is that right??
Guess you cry, I pat your back?
Is that right??
I guess I text and you text back?
Is that right??
Will you be my girlfriend??
Is that right??
Will you be my girlfriend?
Magical Child
It’s quiet simple when I’m listening?
You keep leading me all the way home?
These messages you’ve been offering?
As a magical child?
An essential child?
?
It hinges on the driver’s seat?
It depends on who’s in control?
When i waver on the attuning?
I kill a magical child?
This essential child?
Oh?
?
To thine own self be true?
To my core self be true?
?
When direction is confounding?
When vitality is far gone?
When the spark is out, uninspiring?
I call the magical child?
The essential child?
Oh?
?
To thine own self be true?
To my core self be true?
?
When I’m lost and I’m unraveling?
When I’m off my track and I float?
When I need true north and some grounding?
I call the magical child?
The essential child?
This angelic child?
This innocent child?
?
To thine own self be true?
To my core self, be true?
?
Angelic child?
Innocent child?
Magical child?
Essential child
No
My mind is invaded
My gates are ignored
My thoughts are negated
And you're on a roll
And I am offended
By your acts of shamelessness
Your lack of conscience
And your flagrant steamroll
What part of no do you not understand?
Do you not understand?
What part of no do you not understand?
Do you not understand?
My sorrow is left off
My rages discounted
My fears are founded
This dam is no more
What part of no do you not understand?
Do you not understand?
What part of no do you not understand?
Do you not understand?
Don't touch me
My body is frozen
Thanks to you
And I've sat with these secrets
I'm no longer willing to
What part of no do you not understand?
Do you not understand?
What part of no do you not understand?
Do you not understand?
Guru
I started young
I was enthralled
By your agape
As a student
I kept going
Colour me captured
Disillusioned enough
Needed your guidance
And so I turned
Over to you
To lead me home
And then I said..
Guru teacher
Guruji I bow to you
Humbled by your knowledgeable education
Guruji I bow to the divine in you
Please consider me your utmost humble student
And so I fell
Under your spell
I was enraptured
Your every word
I held onto
‘Til it was gospel
You weren’t deterred
From your asserts
We’re identical
I will admit
I saw your face
Inside my face
And then I saw..
Guru teacher
Guruji I bow to you
Humbled by your knowledgeable education
Guruji I bow to the divine in you
Please consider me your utmost humble student
[Souleye Rap]
You had enough of subservience, and so you stopped me.
You saw my light seen as your light, gave it back to me.
I eventually saw that your jewel was in my pocket.
It had been there the whole time throughout my search.
And I finally saw...
Guru teacher
Guruji I bow to you
Humbled by your knowledgeable education
Guruji I bow to the divine in you
Please consider me your utmost humble student
Guru teacher
Guruji I bow to you
Taken by your knowledgeable education
Guruji I bow to the divine in you
Thanks for pointing back to my inherent wisdom.
Permission
I've been this girl offering much,
Grumbling low and I gave all
All that was asked of me, when order was solved
Envision what's under the lighting
I Never stop long enough to swim against the tide, oh
And I will see I might get too much, to love, to mourn
This new true love song
Permission to be, permission to solve
And you're the only things that matters to me
The freedom to flow, to a genuine flows
And you're the only things that mattered to me
And sure, I had my fun, I play with my roles
With title and break heart wine
But then, after a while, so much done by rode
No longer by inspiration
I've never stopped long enough to see whose was this blind ambition
And I was not some chanting stop
And realize whose was this shine, so now
Permission to be, permission to solve
And you're the only things that matter to me
The freedom to flow, to a genuine flows
And you're the only things that matter to me
If this way is by the drop,
Here waits, this makes sense
To a bib, with this time
Really we have so now
So now permission to be, permission to fly
And you're the only things that matter to me
The freedom to flow, to a genuine flows
And you're the only things that mattered to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh
The simple things that matter to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh
The simple things that matter to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh
The simple things that matter to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh
The simple things that matter to me
Jekyll and Hyde
We're at once like peas in a pod?
Like gloves around a hand?
Our arms are wrapped around each other's shoulders?
?
And then we're on fine with parity?
With standards of golden?
With birds that are of feathers of predictability?
?
While I am flying high you fly beside?
Just when I start to drop my guard then?
?
Here you come with the Jekyll and Hyde?
I get used to your light then the jarring blindside ?
Step off with the Jekyll and Hyde?
When I drop my guard you bring out the dark side?
I am done with your Jekyll and Hyde?
?
Souleye:?
I thought there was a protocol?
On how you treat a friend?
You're hot and cold I'd share my soul?
But you're not listening?
So I'm not stressing it?
No pressure on my mind at all?
Just curious about your split personality?
Allegory double life?
One moment's really nice?
Next moment exploding on me like it was dynamite?
With no responsibility to be accountable?
I guess I'm gone free away now from your hold?
?
When you're kind your kind is transcendent?
harmony rules the land?
But sure as night turns to day, it is always uncertain?
?
Just when I'm lulled by your sweet side?
The harder the fall when you flip the script each time?
?
Here you come with the Jekyll and Hyde?
I get used to your light then the jarring blindside?
Step off with the Jekyll and Hyde?
When I drop my guard you bring out the dark side?
I am done with your Jekyll and Hyde
Tantra
In a pond, the dimmer switch
Too rough from delicate
I want to know the secret is
We scratch it cause we know
You make it fast, or slow
In way only you can
You drive your car
With masterful experience
You’re my heart,
One moment man
You’re fading your control
Inside your ...
And here I watch you wield
Your passion with command
And shine on out them all
Into our secret tantra,
I thank you...
Homes around, I feel sad
With ...along my back
Safety and ...
The most freedom I’ve had
And you are lock me lock
In ways only you can
You keep moving between
Power and submission
You’re my heart,
One moment man
You’re fading your control
Inside your ...
And here I watch you wield
Your passion with command
And shine on out them all
Into our secret tantra,
I thank you
Exploring this, ... boredom
Don’t even lead us into our hearts
Beyond life and ... seek straight into possible
The closest sweet come, to this you’ll know
With ...on, are all sense
Your breath, first grace, my skin
This fire I’m forced still he
It keeps warm within
We keep progressing
As you offer full spectrum
And we’ll keep ...until our days are done
You’re my heart,
One moment man
You’re fading your control
Inside your ...
And here I watch you wield
Your passion with command
And shine on out them all
Into our secret tantra,
I thank you...
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